L'Arc en Ciel Fanfiction .::. Angel and Demon

Chapter 13:~Bedroom talk~

Tetsu walked over to Hyde’s bedroom door. He rested his hand hesitantly on the latch and stared at it. He was shaking. He wondered for how long he could go on shaking before his whole body was exhausted.

His rational side had miserably lost the battle against his emotions and needs. That was too bad. He knew by experience that he couldn’t trust his feelings solely.

He took a deep breath and decided to go and speak with his friend about this feeling he had been having for years, and had not yet decided what it was. Some long time ago, he had considered it a crush. He had become infatuated with Hyde since... how long? He couldn’t remember any more... He couldn’t elucidate the exact moment when he had realized of his feelings, but at some point he had. Images and memories paraded in his mind. Old times, when they were nothing but kids striving for success, dreaming of fame and glory. Those two had arrived. Love had been elusive though. And right now he wasn’t sure of his feelings anymore. Had it all been a dream? Memories were blurry, distant... like the far echo of a waterfall. Years had passed, and Tetsu’s rational side had managed to numb the pain, disguise that love into just friendship and care. And now, when his emotional side was screaming madly at him, pushing him to do what he had been advised to avoid by his rational side, he felt afraid. He felt clueless and scared. But he had never been one to overlook his obligations.

The door was locked, so Tetsu knocked on it gently.

"Hideto-kun... may I come in... and... and talk to you?" Tetsu said with a faint voice.

"No!" He heard the muffled scream coming from the other side of the door.

"Please?" He insisted sadly.

"I’m not in the mood!"

"I’m sorry... about all this. I understand... this is too sudden and stupid... I’m so sorry."

Hyde didn’t answer.

"I’ll leave if you want me to. I just want you to know that..."

"No!" The muffled scream echoed again.

"You want me to stay, Hideto-kun?"

"Yes."

"You want me to do anything?"

"Yes."

Tetsu gulped. He had asked the wrong question. He foresaw Hyde answering back something mean at him, like ‘Go to hell’ or anything that sounded like that, but he had to ask, the ball was on his court...

"What is it, Hideto-kun?"

"Stop calling me Hideto! I’m Haido!! Ha-i-do!!"

"OK. Anything else, Hide... Haido-kun...?"

"Yeah."

"What is it?"

"Come in."

"It’s locked, Haido."

"Ah... yeah." Tetsu heard the heavy footsteps loaded with anger and hostility as they approached the other side of the door. Hyde unlocked and opened it suddenly, startling Tetsu a couple steps back. He looked into Tetsu’s eyes, glaring, and still holding the inner side latch firmly. He could see how sad and embarrassed Tetsu was.

"This must be Ken’s scheme... He must have been going on and on about having a concert and convinced Tetsu to do this. I just can’t believe Tet-chan got along with it... but he won’t be able to play this stupid role for long... I’ll take care of him first. He’ll be easy. So sensitive and such a crybaby..."

"Come in." Hyde snapped. He was awfully mortified behind his wary look. He had lost the person he had considered to be the love of his life, and to top it all off, the people he thought were his friends were only scheming up in order to avoid problems with their jobs.

"You are in the way." Tetsu informed softly.

"Knock me down." Hyde defied him raising his chin.

"I won’t."

"Push me."

"I won’t"

Hyde took Tetsu’s hand and rested his head on the bassist’s chest.

"Why you never told me? I feel so stupid!" Hyde whispered mocking a sad voice. He knew he had to force Tetsu to give up the stupid plan. He would take care of Ken later.

"Because... you were... with him..." Tetsu answered surprised, he didn’t realize Hyde was acting.

"Sakura used to say that you liked me... but I didn’t believe him..." Hyde purred enchantingly.

"Well... I used to have a big crush on you..."

"But not any more..."

"It’s not like that, Haido... I mean... This is all so strange... I guess I acted too suddenly..."

"Yeah." He paused for a second to think, then looked at Tetsu in the eyes and said: "Come to sleep with me, Tet-chan."

"What?!" Tetsu shrieked and took a couple steps backwards.

"Not that, baka. Sleep. Just... only sleep!" Hyde smirked. "I’m so tired lately..."

"Like... like... sleep in the same bed?!" Tetsu screamed alarmed.

"I won’t do anything to you, man!! I told you I’m not in the mood!"

"So if you were ‘in the mood’... you would?!" Tetsu retreated more and Hyde tugged from his hand gently.

"Maybe... You are so cute. Maybe I wouldn’t resist. But not now, Tet-chan..." Hyde placed his head on Tetsu’s chest again and looked up at him smiling, his acting was coming out pretty well. He was a master at this.

"What if you suddenly wake up ‘in the mood’"? Tetsu asked fearfully.

"Hehehe..." Hyde laughed. "...Well... you’ll have to take the risk..."

"Uh... uh..." Part of Tetsu wanted to run away, and part of him wanted to stay. The old fight inside him had began once again... it seemed Rational was not dead after all.

"Come on! I don’t let guys lay me on the first date..." Hyde said pursing his lips mischievously.

"This is a date?"

"Uh... yeah... We’ll go some place later. Now come to sleep with me." Hyde answered and pulling from Tetsu’s hand he motioned his feet to go back into his room.

"Uh... no... I mean... I’m hungry." Tetsu pulled his own hand away from Hyde’s grasp.

"I’ll feed you later. Now come to bed..." Hyde said turning and taking Tetsu’s hand again.

"Oh, that sounds so... naughty... Please don’t say such things, I..."

"Sounds naughty... yeah... Please? Will you come already?" Hyde insisted grinning.

"Haido... I... Listen..."

Hyde tugged from Tetsu and dragged him inside the room, then closed the door behind them and released the bassist’s hand.

"You have pretty hands, Tet-chan." Hyde commented while taking off his robe, exposing his pale, naked body impudently. Tetsu blushed rapidly and felt ready to leave the room screaming and running scared, his back against the door.

"I’m gonna put on underwear and a pajama, OK? Since you are so shy..." Hyde stated.

"Ha--hai." Tetsu stuttered. His tongue tied by the tight bonds of surprise, fear and a certain draught of lust.

"My pajamas won’t fit you, since you are a little bigger than me, but you can sleep in your underwear, I don’t mind." Hyde added grinning in his usual know-it-all way.

"No... No, I mean... I’m OK this way."

"Oh! Wait! I know I have these pajamas that are one size too large. They’ll fit you perfectly." Hyde put on a pair of boxers and browsed through his drawers, then he took out a neatly folded set of white sleepwear.

"They are all white, not in the gaudy colors you love, but I guess I don’t have any others..."

"I think they are still small, Haido." Tetsu tried to avoid the subject as much as he could. He was getting terrified of Hyde.

"Yeah? Uh... well, whatever. Put them on!" Hyde ordered.

"You mean... now?" Tetsu’s voice weakened as the pajamas were thrown at him.

"Yeah... when do you suppose you are gonna put them on?!" Hyde asked matter-of-factly while he put on his own pajamas.

"Uh... right... uh... like... here?"

"What? Do you think you’ll be going to your home to put them on?"

"No, no, I mean... can I change in the bathroom?"

"No. Change here." Hyde answered distractedly while straightening the bed sheets.

"Uh... I’m shy."

"So am I." Hyde answered without paying much attention.

"No, Haido, you are not." Tetsu smirked nervously. He was still paralyzed against the door grabbing the folded sleeping garments as if they were lifesavers.

"I’m very shy!" Hyde protested and sat on the bed staring amused at Tetsu. He was sure his plan was working very well. Tetsu was obviously shocked. Any straight guy would be in his position.

"Uh... OK, just turn around, please."

"Why?" Hyde asked defiantly.

"Because it’s un-modest of me to have you look when I change!"

"Why? You’ve seen me change!" Hyde said tilting his head to the right and watching Tetsu’s frightened expression.

"Duh... cuz you are NOT shy." Tetsu answered cracking his voice.

"I am. Just... I’m not shy with you." Hyde shrugged.

"Well, turn around! It won’t hurt to turn around. Please?" Tetsu pleaded.

"OK, but I warn you: I might peep." Hyde answered amused.

"Haido!"

Hyde crossed his arms over his chest and turned around.

"Are you finished yet?" Hyde asked after a few seconds.

"I only took off my shirt! Hold on."

Hyde turned to face Tetsu. "How come taking off a T-shirt takes you so long?" Hyde’s eyes stopped at the sight of the growing bulk in Tetsu’s pants.

"Ahhh I can see why you were so shy!" Hyde giggled very amused and pointed. Tetsu turned around blushing fire red.

Hyde walked over to Tetsu and wrapped his arms around the bassist’s waist, resting his head between Tetsu’s shoulder blades.

"Need any help, Tet-chan?" He toyed with him whispering, letting Tetsu feel his warm breath on the soft skin of his back as he spoke.

"What’s the big deal with embarrassing me and making me nervous!?" Tetsu protested at the verge of tears.

"I wanna hear just one set of words... from you... A set of words you wouldn’t say if you weren’t certain of. A lie you wouldn’t tell a true friend." Hyde went on whispering on Tetsu’s back, and trying to peep over the sides to watch the bassist’s arousal. "He’s big..." He thought.

"Stop it! Haido... what do you want to hear?!" Tetsu protested.

"Say... ‘Ai shite iru, Haido.’"

"What?"

"Say that."

"Na...na... nani?"

"You don’t feel like it?"

"Why are you pushing me like that?!"

"You deserve it..."

"Why...?"

"You know why... Don’t play idiot with me..."

"What...? What are you talking about?!"

"You are such a wimp, Tet-chan... And you say you’ve been in love with me for quite some time..."

"You were just... too much ‘into’ Sakura. I couldn’t tell you. Besides, I am--"

"You never tried... chicken..." Hyde went on whispering on Tetsu’s back, close to his neck. "Tet-chan... Take off your pants..."

"Wha---what?!!"

"You are not getting in my bed wearing those jeans... they are dirty."

"Wha---They are clean! I just put them on this morning!"

"But jeans are not sleepwear..." Hyde continued whispering, now behind Tetsu’s ears.

Tetsu sighed nervously and undid his pants.

"Let me help you... See? I’m such a good friend..." Hyde moved his hands the short distance from Tetsu’s waist to the upper rim of his pants, and pulled them down gently, tugging a little from his boxers, causing them to lower a bit. Tetsu caught them and pulled them up fast.

"Oh... be careful, Tet-chan... You might hurt yourself..." Hyde’s voice was enticing, whispering against Tetsu’s back.

"Ha---Haido... please stop this... It’s not helping..."

"Am I intimidating you...?" Hyde looked up and kissed Tetsu behind his neck. "You should stop this if you feel you’ve been forced to do something you don’t want to do..."

"You... you just sound like... you are so horny... you are scaring me..." Tetsu protested.

"Oh... maybe I am horny..." Hyde answered and pressed his pelvis against Tetsu’s butt.

"Tha—that’s it!" Tetsu yelled and jumped out of Hyde’s grab. Hyde looked at him amused, holding Tetsu’s T-shirt away from him and pouting maliciously. He smirked, feeling he had finally managed to ruin his friends’ stupid plan.

"I’m going home."

"No! No, please don’t go!" Hyde mocked a cracked voice, as if he were going to cry, and sat on the bed. "Is this up to where your so-called love gets?"

"Just... just... what are you up to?!!"

"You give up even before starting..." Hyde smirked maliciously.

"Starting what? Haido, please, listen to me. I don’t wanna hurt you or cause you any kind of affliction. It would be so good if we could just..."

"Enough. Do what you please..." Hyde grinned bitterly and sat on the bed.

"I’m gonna stay with you if you please." Tetsu relented.

"Are you dropping it?" Hyde quizzed Tetsu.

"What?"

"OK. You’re stupidly tough." Hyde sighed. "Well... Make a move on me." He went on grinning.

"I’m not in the mood!" Tetsu teased Hyde imitating his former tone.

Hyde slid a hand under his own pajama pants casually. "Come on." He begged.

Tetsu stared at him. "Are you gonna jerk off now? Here?"

"Huh? No, not now." Hyde answered. "Make a move on me first."

"No... uh... I can’t think of anything... Actually I’d really like to..."

"Then, I’ll go on..." Hyde warned getting up. "I’ll motivate you."

"I’ll stop you!" Tetsu warned squeezing his back against the door and holding the pajama in his right hand, pointing at Hyde with it.

"OK." Hyde grinned walking over to Tetsu. "Try."

"Please, Haido, stop... you said only sleep..." Tetsu pleaded.

"Ja... Make a move on me, or get the hell out. I’m not in the mood to put up with hysterical chickens. Unless... you never really said the truth..."

"You are such a big creep! You’re taking out your anger on me! I’m sorry if I let you know something I’d have rather kept hidden! I never meant to..."

Hyde pinned Tetsu against the door, and caressed his stomach with his left hand, tilting his head up and staring into Tetsu’s soft brown eyes.

"Do it, Tet-chan. You don’t dare to?"

Tetsu’s legs were shaking. He couldn’t stop Hyde no matter what he said. He was getting awfully scared... yet... somehow... he was loving this.

Suddenly Tetsu grabbed Hyde’s head in both his hands and kissed him forcefully, almost choking him, exploring the vocalist’s mouth with his tongue in a deep, slow yet frantic kiss that lasted several minutes. Then Hyde pulled away from the kiss and gasped for air.

"Ah... ah... you are such a good kisser Tetsu..." This time Hyde was not lying. The words came out of his mouth naturally, revealing exactly what he thought.

"You stink. You smell of tobacco." Tetsu answered shaking nervously.

"I’ll rinse my mouth and we’ll do it again, ne, Tet-chan?" Hyde was getting hyper and smiling at him. Tetsu’s heartbeat... and the kiss... Hyde was developing a plan of his own... If his best friend was eager to go for this only for the sake of the band, maybe he would play along. Maybe he was about to get a doppelganger for Sakura...

"No. Go to bed. We’ll sleep." Tetsu ordered in his ‘mighty-leader’ voice.

"No, no... Kiss me again!" Hyde pouted equally bossy.

"No--" Tetsu couldn’t continue, as Hyde kissed him again, pressing his small-framed body against his. Tetsu lifted Hyde by the waist, without pulling away, and threw him on the bed.

"Ohhh, yeah! Yeah! I knew I wouldn’t have any regrets about this, Tet-chan!"

"Go to sleep!" Tetsu ordered.

"No, no! I want more! It’s play-time!"

Tetsu tried to walk over to Hyde on the bed, but stumbled tripping on his own pants, still not completely removed, and fell. Hyde laughed his lungs off at Tetsu on the floor. This made Tetsu a little mad... and very lustful.

"I’ll get you for this..." Tetsu said between clenched teeth.

"Huh?..." Hyde couldn’t react before Tetsu got on top of him pinning him down to bed and kissing him furiously, sliding his hand under Hyde’s pajama jacket to grab one of his nipples and play with it between his fingers. Hyde’s arousal was so obvious, Tetsu unintentionally brushed it against his bare thigh, and Hyde moaned inside the kiss. Tetsu realized he had the upper hand now, and slowly drove his hand from Hyde’s chest to under his pajama pants, cupping Hyde’s hard-on over his boxer. This time Hyde’s moan was louder, and he tried to free his right arm in order to pull Tetsu even closer to him.

"Do... it... please..." Hyde begged between gasps.

"Do what...?" Tetsu roared softly in his ear.

"Anything you want... you got me... you won."

"You are that easy...?"

"Yeah... basically..."

"I’m disappointed..."

"Please... I’ll be tougher tomorrow..." Hyde closed his eyes and pictured the image of Sakura on top of him. Kissing him, wooing him, slowly driving him crazy with his loving hands and body... He could anticipate the warm and firm touch, the brazing licks on his neck, the fiercely passionate love that had been mangled away from him, and he was fighting to back with painful effort... at any cost.

"You are not resisting me...?"

"No. I’m not... I will tomorrow, now... do me..."

"I won’t. You can’t be THAT easy." Tetsu suddenly sat up.

"What?!!" Hyde yelled very annoyed. The sweet image in his head vanished away.

Tetsu smirked wickedly and pleased at himself. He had re-gained control over himself, even if he was still shaking.

"Ohhh, Come-on-Tet-chan!! Don’t do this!!"

"You said you were not in the mood..." Tetsu explained seemingly calm while putting on his assigned pajamas.

"Ohhh, please!!!"

"Stop begging, what are you? A dog?"

"Onegaiiiiiii!!!!!"

"Go to sleep. Brat."

Hyde nested his head on Tetsu’s back.

"Please, please, please, Tet-chan... I’m not gonna pressure you again, and I’ll believe you, just please..."

"No. Sleep."

"I’m ready! I’m not thinking of anyone but you!" Hyde lied.

"I am NOT ready. And I won’t fuck you on the first date... remember you said that?"

"This is not a date!" Hyde protested tugging from the back of Tetsu’s pajama jacket, which he had just put on.

"You said it was."

"What kind of a date is this? We are staying at home! In bed!" Hyde protested. "Since we are at it we could as well do it."

"Uh... you said it was a date, so bear with it." Tetsu said and got into bed. Hyde jumped on his back and holding him by the shoulders he shook him.

"Please! Please! Please!"

Tetsu turned causing Hyde to fall on the bed, and pushed the dark-haired vocalist’s head against the pillow.

"I want to make one thing clear, Haido. You don’t make scenes with me. You don’t get your whim with me, you don’t force me into doing anything, you don’t manipulate me, and you don’t play with me."

Hyde whimpered.

"And you certainly are a guy. So don’t play girlie with me. If Sakura liked it, so be it, but you are not being a girl with me."

"You like girls?" Hyde asked trying to drive the conversation somewhere less itchy.

"Of course."

"Me too." Hyde smiled.

"Lately, you don’t show it."

"Neither do you!" Hyde laughed.

"Whatever. Now go to sleep."

"Can I hug you?" Hyde asked pulling the angel act he could put up so well.

"OK."

"And squeeze you?"

"Just make sure you don’t choke me."

"And ... Can I tickle you?"

"If... you wanna die..."

"I’m ticklish..." Hyde commented on Tetsu’s ear.

"Good. I’ll bear it in mind."

"And my weak spot is..."

"...under your belt." Tetsu finished the sentence and pushed Hyde inside the bed.

"No! It’s not there!"

"Shut up. Sleep."

Hyde hugged Tetsu, and rested his head on the bassist’s back.

"This is so confusing... I don’t know anymore if Tetsu is acting or not... I mean... he had a big hard-on... His kiss felt so natural... so spontaneous... What if he’s being honest?" He pondered for a while. "Nah... it can’t be. I’m fooling myself. He’s acting of course. But at least, I won’t feel lonely..." Hyde thought to himself. "If he is being honest, then this is so mean... but... but... He can’t be. Tetsu will do me good... I know I can close my eyes and see Sakura instead of him... And he’ll fancy himself being the great sacrificing leader that saved the band. We’ll all be happy."

Hyde sighed loudly and closed his eyes. "I gotta get him to have sex with me, though... or it will never be like Sakura..." He squeezed Tetsu’s waist slightly harder and finally he fell asleep using Tetsu’s back for a pillow.

"Haido..." Tetsu thought. His eyes wide open in the dark. "I’ve touched you... I’ve... felt your skin...

My fingers... they have stroked you... My callous hands pranced along your body. Haido, my treasure, my unreachable dream... My lips have melted in your mouth... I’ve tasted the salt on your skin, the sugar in your mouth... the sweet moisture of your breath has traveled through my lungs, made my heart skip a beat or two and got every little hair on my poor body to stand on end..." Tetsu choked a silent cry. Part fear, part emotion.

"My sweet dream... My arms have held you, and I didn’t have to hide it. I didn’t have to pretend. You expected my arms... you wanted me to hold you. I never imagined it could feel so natural... so right. Holding you finally in my arms, after having desired you for so long. After having resigned myself to watching you from afar, to wanting you in painful silence.

And you were awaiting me. You didn’t reject me. You smiled... my sweet dream, you even smiled at me.

I finally made you smile, my treasure.

And I’ve taken in the beauty of your shape with my clumsy fingers... My shaky hand tripped slowly over the complexity of your body... the hidden forms I have guessed under my shy touch...

I’ve felt your body... I... just can’t believe it. This is too good to be true... too good... I’ve touched your luscious skin, kissed your beautiful mouth, caressed your precious body... Haido... I’ve waited so long for this... so long..."

Rational was locked up. And Emotional was having a party.